Despite everything...

Life is good, really good. Last entry I talked about my bad feeling. Well, long story short, I called off the date, because Paul was a MAJOR jerkface only interested in sex. After a lot of anger, crying, and finally peace, I messaged him and told him that the date was off, that I forgive him for hurting me and going off on my best friend, and that I was sorry for being so angry. He got a little clingy, but at the same time acting like he had no idea what I was talking about. He got a little stalkerish, so I threatened to report him to facebook if he didn't stop messaging me and friend requesting me. Shady. But, you know what? I'm perfectly okay. I'm not super bummed or angry or anything, I'm just praising God because even though this was a little tough for me, I really learned not to doubt myself and my beliefs. I have more confidence in myself than ever before, and that's saying alot, considering my past with my self confidence issues. I love God, as I've posted before, and I've been striving to get to know Him better. School isn't as hard this semester as it was last semester, yet, and I'm trying alot harder this semester (which might be why its easier... hm... interesting lol).
But I am considering a different college plan than I initially came up with - maybe after Flo I will go to Illinois College, in Jacksonville, IL. It's a small college... like smaller than my high school! I've always wanted to go to a small college, and this looks like my chance. The administrations office even EMAILED me personally, and addressed me by name, and it was all casual and well...adult like, haha. Her name is Sarah, she didn't even sign her last name, like we're best friends or something. It was nice to see that. I'm super excited, and I can't wait to see if I get accepted!
I just LOVE life!