I hate bad feelings...

This is going to sound crazy, but the other night, I had a feeling that something bad was going to happen. It was really sudden and it scared me. I hate having those feelings. That was the night before last, and nothing had happened. Tonight, I talked to Paul - and he turned out to be... different than I thought. He was basically pressuring me to kiss him on the first date, and saying things like "I was hoping for at least a kiss" and I was like "at least??" he knows that I'm new at this dating thing. He knew that from the beginning. Yet, it didn't start bothering him until tonight? I'm so confused, and he's saying things like "this might not work out" and stuff, and it hurts. He was completely not himself tonight, and some friends of mine think that his friends might be doing this, and not him. But how come I feel like that's not the case? I mean, I guess it's a logical conclusion to come to - that he completely changed, and turned into a jerk out of nowhere... but there was still something... that was the same about him. some of his phrases were the same. but yet there were things that were totally strange. Like he would be "wow, your like super new at this aren't you?" and my jaw would drop. i had TOLD him all of these things before, and he was acting like he had no idea. and last night, he was supposed to go to a party or something, and when I asked him if he had fun last night, he said that he just hung around the dorm and watched anastasia at like 1 AM. I don't know, its just... weird. The whole situation is confusing. I want this to work out, but not if he's a jerk. It... hurts and it's... I don't even know. It feels like... when something good comes along, it's taken from me. Like I'm not allowed to be blissfully happy for more than a couple of days. And I know I sound like a drama queen - this isn't really a big problem considering all the things I've been through. But I was happy because a boy liked me for me. He thought I was cute, and funny, and all this stuff. Or at least, I thought he liked me for me. I'm hoping and praying with everything inside of me that this wasn't him, that this was his friends, and that everything will be okay.... but I have a feeling that won't happen... oh well, life goes on. Goodnight everyone.