Happiness...

Wow! It's been a while since I've been this blissfully happy. I have no idea why I'm so happy, I mean considering the whole thing with my youth pastor and his wife and everything, but... I still find myself loving God more than I ever thought possible. I mean, I don't understand why He would take the Rainbolt's baby only 11 weeks after conception, and it seems totally unfair. But I KNOW that God has a plan in all of this, even though it's not visible to me yet, and probably not Heather and Kyle either, but it's there!
So, I was listening to my music, and this song called Magnificent Obsession started playing... I first heard this song at youth group when Kyle decided it was time for a new song....

Lord, You know how much
I want to know so much
In the way of answers and explanations
I have cried and prayed
And still I seem to stay
In the middle of life's complications
All this pursuing leaves me feeling like I'm chasing down the wind
But now it's brought me back to You
And I can see again

This is everything I want
This is everything I need
I want this to be my one consuming passion
Everything my heart desires
Lord, I want it all to be for You, Jesus
Be my magnificent obsession

So capture my heart again
Take me to depths I've never been
Into the riches of Your grace and Your mercy
Return me to the cross
And let me be completely lost
In the wonder of the love
That You've shown me
Cut through these chains that tie me down to so many lesser things
Let all my dreams fall to the ground
Until this one remains

You are everything I want
And You are everything I need Lord,
You are all my heart desires
You are everything to me

You are everything I want
You are everything I need
I want You to be my one consuming passion
Everything my heart desires Lord,
I want it all to be for You
I want it all to be for You


I mean wow! right? It's so... amazing! I don't know why, but it's just such a powerful and meaningful song!! And then after that, I listened to He Will Carry Me - which I usually cry to - and I rejoiced that God IS there to carry you through the burdens that life puts on you. I was so... happy, so grateful for everything I have and all the blessings in my life! Thank You, God!

God bless you ALL!!!




Love always,
Michelle